I'm in the home stretch of my current manuscript revision, so most of my writing time this week has been eaten up by that. But I did pause to gather these random thoughts I had while revising... Enjoy!
Opens manuscript to page one:
Ok, lets do this!
I've gone over this first chapter so many frickin' times that I don't know if it's even good anymore.
Hey, this isn't bad... I mean I might be kinda good at this writing thing.
Spoke too soon. This chapter has a missing word and two paragraphs that both say the same thing but in different words. How did I miss that during the previous FOUR REVISIONS?!
Ugh, revisions are the worst. (Puts manuscript aside for the rest of the day)
Can't wait to get back to it!
Damn, that sentence was good.
Gah! That one sounds like my kindergartner wrote it.
Brain: Show, don't tell! Me: Shut up brain. But you're right.
~ Sudden inspiration for improving something four chapters ago. ~
Must scour manuscript for repercussions of the change I just made.
Only three chapters to go. Yay!
~ Sudden idea strikes that would require totally changing the narrative and the personality of main character and pretty much everything I've written and love. Consider for 10 minutes. Realize that's crazy. ~ Resume revision.
Is my ending good enough? Agonize over every bit of feedback ever received only to realize the end is exactly what you want it to be.
Sigh with relief.
Send to agent like a mom sending her kid off to school. (Which I am, and do, every day.)
Immediately second-guess every change I just slaved over.
Have a shot of tequila and try to not to check email every five minutes for agent's feedback.